Why I hate Games?

There is no master just circumstances
There is no Guru just experienced participants
There is no chosen one just the next in line

I play well
I see deception, I hate deception
I know one day it will be my turn

What if,
What if I meet the next in line
what if I was out of my game, then it would be my turn
Then I would be down
Then I would be done for
Then I would be gone

When,
I wish they could stop, but I can see them
I wish the could go, but I can't move them
I feel may be after this or after that then there would be no more
I am always wrong

I don't see an end. I only see new beginnings.
Everyman has a role, a circumstance and every man goes through a handful of them.

I just wish I never go low because of where I think it is

I hope it is not blaspheming but I think the bible has accounts of the same until Jesus.
Now i think till after him
Just now I see till after him
So now I seek a way to be part of the game
To be selfless,
to be role playing.
To enjoy it, to be happy.

Even though I see it I still honestly wish it was not,
what a life.
Life & it's paradoxes
Life

What do I do?
I get close to God in always & all ways.
I don't think for myself,
I don't feed for myself,
I don't wish for myself,

That is the end I see

What a Life! What a Life!